Within Ear shot: Coot (bird) asking me not to come near his newborns
Nose Sniffing: The perfume from a big tree with bright yellow leaves
Hand Grazed: Green paint chipping off bridge overlooking a canal lock
And Still Savoring: Rosemary and thyme brined chicken Aunt Doreen made for dinner.
Fear
A funny thing
Eh
That
Taking us unknowingly by the hand
Leading us somewhere we didn’t
Nope
We didn’t quite want to
Want to go
Or perhaps
Maybe
Making us sit down
Down
Down
When we had meant to stand up
Up
Up
Convincing us outright
To run away
Far far away
From the one we love
So sorry
Or battle a country we had thought as friend
Too bad
We can
Yep
Unwrap it like a candy
This fear
Give it a taste and go on our way
Yum
Yum
Or turn it into a ball of
Of
Of
Twisted rubberbands
Overlapping
Colorful
Beautiful even
Oh the stories we can tell ourselves
Tangling us with tension all the live long day
Long
Long
I’m afraid you will leave me
Also scared that I’ll get sick
Then what
Whispering
I wish I wasn’t alone
Or that the garbage truck didn’t come
Or that detour
That president
That
This
That
But no matter what or where or how
Yes
Yes
Yes
We can calendar
And tailor
And tuck in
And be on time
We say yes
And I do
And go team
And then go
And then go
But when do we sit
Looking straight into the
Vast or the little of the I don’t know
Before
Aw man
And oh shit
And wait what
Panic ensues
And we fall in love with the freak out
Out
Out
The pattern
And how could she
And why would he
And then what
What
What
What if
Or if
Or if
Okay calm down
Turn on the music
Have a glass of wine
And welcome this thing in
This fear
Good evening gorgeous
Greet it at the door with open eyes
Joke and give it a wink
And converse
Freely
About the tricks of the trade
And at the end of the night
You know
I know you
So
What do we have to lose
So
And so and so.
Thank you to all of the folks who listened to me go on and on the day before leaving and got me on that plane.
Fear not.
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